Darkness Lurking Out

It was night.

I was talking to monster. When suddenly a line notification came. I felt something bad. It feels.. as if It's a bad idea to read it.

I was hesitant. Still tapping the notification though, a message. From an unknown person.

"Hey devilbaek,

I'm one of your haters.  Kris's girlfriend. 
I hate you. Kris was hurt because of you. 
Now I'm here to tell you everything.  Kris loves you. He loves you alot. Remember the time he got disabled?  
You were 11 that time. Of course you didn't know he was disabled. You thought he left you.
Stupid, you're a stupid asshole.  
He searched for you. Your name was Bacon Byun right? He searched and asked every Bacon Byun he found. But none of them was you. Then months, and months. I was friends with him by March 2014(?) I guess. But then he told me everything and cried so hard. 
He missed you so fucking much!! Months passed again and he said he found someone named Bhyunn Da'Fluffy Pup.
Which is you. 
And he knows it's you. Since your actions. But..  you were in a relationship. 
With A fucking Luhan.
Cheater I say."

I held a deep. Deep. Deep. Breath.
Don't cry. I whispered to myself.

Ignoring Monster's message. I typed a reply. Defending myself. Of course.

But she replied back.

"Kris cutted because of you."

That's when I regretted everything. I knew it. I knew why he was disturbing my life all this time. It was my fault.

It's my fault. It's my fault. 

That night I didn't talk to anyone.  And pushed everyone away.

Even my best friend. Haikal was his name. We were friends for 7 years.

And I broked it.

He then started to hate me and he kept bringing my past.

About me killing my cousin, me accidentally hurting his sister, me being the worst child in the universe, me being a heartless.

He mentioned every of my exes. Especially Jongim.

Jongim.

How much missed him..

And then I changed, I have one thing in my mind.

I don't need any friends , I just need Monster.
Don't trust anyone.

I hate happiness.

It makes me regret.