Self-harm

" My boyfriend is cutting.

My girlfriend is addicted to cutting.

My sister can't stop cutting. "

I hear that alot. I mumbled to my cousin that's so concerned of the people in Diary of An Rp Group. He kept reading the emotional posts loudly to make me hear each and one of them. Each. And. One. Of.  Them. Fuck.

While that I was actually having a hot make out with my boyfriend in rpw. He continues, "How do we find justice now?" Oh, it doesn't even exist. "Where is peace in this world", that doesn't exist either.

"Why are people so stupid to make this as their hobby."

My hands stopped typing. What?

I slowly replied Monster before glancing at my cousin (more like glaring ).

"Hobby? What if they were suffering all this time?"

"Then do something else than cutting"

Nice answer smartass.

"You won't understand." I defend, Why am I defending self-harming people?

It's not because I cut too. It's not because I understand them either.

It's because monster is part of it. And I understand him.

Every people that cuts, is suffering. Alot.

Makes me remember a very memorable thing I said to him this past weeks or months.

"Stop cutting!" I can feel my body boils in anger, a tear slowly flows out my brown glassy orbs. Wiping them away as I stare at the latter.

Monster. You're a monster.

"I can't. "

Then I went away from him. I ignored every messages.

Then I ask my daddy about it.

"You know, Baek. These type of people needs advices "

"So. Let's give them."

I look at the older yet handsome father in rpw of mine. He ruffled my hair, liking the messy look I'm having. (He likes sex, so yeah.)

"If you want to cut then.. Remember this. Ask your lover to draw a butterfly at their wrist. Each and every one of the butterfly is the person they care about. The person they love. When they wanted to cut or they still cut? It means they just killed the butterfly."

"Think about it, would you kill your loved ones?"

"Would you, Baekhyunnie?"

"N-no.."

And I told Monster, the exact same thing.

I don't know if he still remembers though.

But I'll make him stop cutting. I'll make him stop every bad thing he's doing.

You don't need to be a bad influence,  Monster.

Check out my new page  ! For people that's self harming .. The Butterfly Project